Friday, December 31, 2010

plislah...

actually
i feel like haissshhhh
penat wei perah otak cari the best layout
and the best words to put in
and seeking ways to complete it
at last..

uploading were not successful

hahahha
no worries
i'll do that again tomorrow

it's freezing even not snowing
hahahaha
duduk dalam selimut la paling best sekali waktu nih
i'm off to go
ni mmg feel saje gedik nak tulis sumthing
even not necessary pun

btw lagu oh yeah mmg addictive
so please don't listen to it
you-tubing it
and downloading it
DANGEROUS
me and my fren already infected
hahahaha

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

confusion

i am confused which smartphone should i buy?
nothing comes with the full criteria fulfilled


don't confuse me
i'm not a teacher
i don't even think i look like one
i'm not good in teaching
delivering knowledge and facts
even for primary school level
that noble profession need
more that a human for me

it's still
what's in my heart is not in my head
and what's in my head is not in my heart

december

few days more to welcome 2011
happy new year everyone

i really wish i know what i'm doing
and laziness please stay away
courage, please help me fill in the field
uploading document and click the right button

my basic principle is don't bother the other complicated ways
when the simple yet better path is just in front of you
i've been practising that these 4-5 years, really
my other principle is don't break your family's hearts
now they are collided
ottoke??~

one more week then
everyone will be back to school
so my interest will shift to all of these
(okay let me put some pics)


 MARRY ME MARY!
 she's my 'kesukaan' korean actress
and yes she's the same one in CS

 i just love her acting
she's cute!
oh not forget to mention
jang geun suk
tak payah cakaplah
menggetarkan jiwa weh!
hahahaha
but i still love ki hoon oppa!





 and this is SECRET GARDEN
my first time watching this on ONE 
i think i should go grab the downloaded one from ateem
they're now airing ep 7 and 8 
and seriously i'm being left behind
not updated sbb ateem got the latest eps airing in korean
it's 14 i think
that's the important of subscribing anything fast
and being patient with domnloading process
untill now i'm PROUD that 
how my frens (wawa,ateem n dayah)
manage to wait
so i'm saving my hyun bin later :D

the both new dramas are airing at the same day and same time
i dont know which one to choose..haishh


till then
i'm still normal
haha :p



Monday, December 20, 2010

i'm too happy for you!

it's her engagement
i'm sorry for being late
u are so beautiful
as always

wish your forever happiness in life and hereafter
u are gorgeous!
and auntie
you were so busy that i didnt get much time
to talk to you

i'm waiting for the wedding of yours
NADIA FARIZA
congratulations!

Thursday, December 16, 2010

bournville

this is the way to enjoy your
fine dark chocolate
i think i start loving it

1
take a moment to savour its rich aroma.
this will help heighten your appreciation of the flavour

2
take a bite. a small one

3
focus on the bouquet of flavours as the chocolate melts on your tongue.
note the texture, the feel of it.
take your time.
a fine dark chocolate is not something you hurry

4
take a deep breath

5
continue to savour bit by bit, taking time to the rich cocoa taste


hahahahha
i take this from..SECRET
the brand make a good job

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

exam is a love potion!

when you are in the middle of the exam period
you are being more rationale
wake up on time (almost at least!)
have breakfast that you skipped for the whole semester
and planning each of your day, hour, minute
unfortunately not on a second
cause i still have to blink my eyes

my bestfren from nz is here in malaysia
i just cant wait to finish exams to meet her
if only i can skip time

i really hope on graduating
seriously i need to complete the resume
at least it can be sent over

as for now
i'm thinking of taking a nap

xoxo

Monday, November 15, 2010

being remembered

i really have lots to write
i'm just afraid i cant write it well enough
to verbalize what's in my heart

i really miss you guys
i'm gonna miss you all more
we had wonderful birthdays
special non-stop smiling dates
and millions colours of excitement

thanks wawa and emie for  teaching me how to ice-skating
i know i'm not bold enough..haha..
i promise wawa
i will let go ur hands on my second time
fizan
i told you not to let me fall (^-^)
luckily she's out earlier  =P
hahahaha
at least i can skate!



now the house is quiet
i really miss all the moments

xoxo

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

i am 22 years old now

29th October
that is my lucky day
always
i just celebrating my 22nd birthday last thursday night

i love the surprise party
exactly like what i was dreaming of
i like the gift
it's beyond of my imagination

here is my surprise adorable gift i ever had





my eyes watering when i watch this
i'm gonna miss all of them very much
you guys are so special
sumpah sayang korang semua!

nanti even we are not under the same roof anymore
i do hope we still keep in touch
let's agree that we will meet at least once a week??????
please.........!

no lah i think we should buy a bungalow!!!!!
the very big one so that all of us will stay together..
ooo we need to buy an office too
we will work together
gosh what am i writing actually...

just stay in my heart ya!
and let me be in yours forever too!
i love u guys

xoxo

p/s: the song which is currently playing is dedicated to all of you

Thursday, October 28, 2010

so yesterday


"It may sound absurd but don’t be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed 
I may be disturbed but won’t you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream"

don't have expectation on me
i may not as what as you may seem
and i don't have any expectation on you
because i know you definitely not
as what as i think of you

life is unexpected
and i am unpredictable

Monday, October 25, 2010

i'm busy

too much caffein
it hurts my liver
i need herbal tea
to calm me down

my heart is always a financial expert
but my mind is always a great auditor

i believe in my instinct now
i should always
for now
go back to your studies

=D

Thursday, October 21, 2010

important

"Dongengan yang sama dicanang berulang
Sekilas pandangan pelbagai andaian
Seumpama naskah yang terbuka
Sesungguhnya tiada rahsia"

thanks for reading 
i appreciate it
especially for someone who pm me yesterday

sorry for hurting
i regret it
especially for you who are so close to me

to NUR HANISAH IBRAHIM
happy birthday (21st October)
dont worry 
you are too beautiful for that crap
believe me (^-*)
and mine is yet to come 
hahahah

also happiest bestday for my dad (20th October)
u are so cool..heeee

till then
i am in good mood to study
xoxo
 

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

touch

Saturday, October 16, 2010

astro challenge 2010

a day after the challenge,
in the finance class,
i accidentally in love yawning in front of sir Ganisen,
realising that i quickly put up a smile for him
"its still morning and u are already sleepy ya?"
hahahha
"how's the astro challenge going on?"

"its 50-50 sir"
"it's ok for the benchmark though"

suddenly i was thinking what i was expecting?
i must say that i enjoyed it and gained some experience from it
its a  mistake..it's not 50-50
the challenge is beneficial
so why am i saying it's just a so-so programme??

it's not about what astro did,
its what the management of uitm had done actually,
i really cant accept the fact that they send us to the bukit jalil and then expecting us to 'tumpang tumpang' the bus provided for another faculty which is located not in the same area,
what are they thinking of actually??
thanks to the pakcik bus yang baik hati anta jugak ktorang kat main campus even bukan responsibility die pun

back to the astro challenge

i was hoping to meet....
but no luck 
i meet opah SITI KELEMBAI instead (i'm really a fan of this)
the people involved with us looked very familiar
i'm sure that i've watched them in the tv or somewhere
i'm not a good fan of tv..hahah

oh that's the problem we had to solve
HOW ASTRO CAN BE RELEVANT TO THE YOUTH IN THE FUTURE?
we had the discussion and presentation
(i was so nervous i had no idea when it had to be in front of the top management)
seriously everyone is taking part eagerly
they are great
our group ended up being the 3rd place
yusry's got the first place (CONGRATULATIONS)
i have to tell you this...
the observers' questions was like very matured, business minded 
that i was like 'soalan die mmg fuhh lah' 

that's the experience that i really appreciated
it was good 

now everyone in their study leave period
and i'm in the boring period :((
when i'm back from bukit jalil fizanyasin and rose already left
pity me!
i feel like i lost 2 days with them when i was involved with the program
i'm home at 12am and left at 630 am the next day
now the house is quiet

43's balik sini cepat!
i miss all of you!

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Monday, October 11, 2010

the wedding

i decided to write after finish revising merger and acquisition

i watched the wedding ceremony of datuk dr sms n dr halina
the groom was charming and the bride was really beautiful
i like both of them

i read through fb's status on my phone
i just dont understand some of them
diorang punye wedding diorang punye sukela
kalau korang tak suke blah
kalau korang suke duduk jela hadap tv3 tu
nak bising2 kutuk buat ape?

ade yang cakap angkasawan rusia kawen tak buat camtu pun
masalahnye u duduk rusia ke u tahu semua???
ke angkasawan rusia tu a best friend of yours
so u pegi die punye wedding ceremony??

jangan la compare wedding orang tu dengan ur wedding-to-be
dah die org bnyk kenal
mestilah die jemput kawan2 die vvip sume
dah tu klu semua vvip datang mestilah buat kat dewan besar
ke boleh buat sumbat kat dalam rumah u???
konfemlah mcam tak kan???
SO JANGAN BANYAK BUNYI!
(the end of emo session..marah betul nih konon)

hahahha

tadik nak tulis bende lain
tapi dah lupe

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

bagaikan sakti

"belayar berbelok belok
sauh dibongkar di tempat tenang
yang tinggal hati tak elok
yang pergi hati tak senang"



i love classic things
same goes to movies
above were taken from one of malaysian great film
puteri gunung ledang
i love that song too
my first impression when i first watched it 6 years ago was like
speechless
it was really good..so artistic..so classic

that was also my opinion when i watched '1957 hati malaya'
i memang hati orang lame2
hahahha
seriously both were great films
whoever read this
please recommend me any classic movies 
;D

Friday, October 1, 2010

suddenly, actually

just back from p4 class

"oh saya dengar u dah start belaja skrg"
reaksi: tergamam sambil "sape yang bagitahu puan plak nih????"
"saya adela sumber2 terdekat yang boleh dipercayai"
dalam hati: ni mesti si rose marhaini

situasi: dalam klas yang agak sibuk mmandangkn semua pelajar aktif mahu bertanya itu ini kat puan
jawapan puan macam pisang goreng panas lah time nih. tibe tibe
"nanti sekejap saya nak pegi melawat farihah"
reaksi: tergamam sambil lihat puan datang kat meja
"errr puan yang nih kene tolak kat EBIT lah ek.."
"tgk bile saye datang je kat die mesti ade yang die nak tanya"
dalam hati: saya malu la puan nak aktif tanya dalam klas...

oh sungguh rs mahu nangis teresak2
subjek ni sangat mencabar
ya Allah permudahkanlah urusanku

lately i feel tired, exhausted and weary
sekarang dah rase mcm ni
nnt dah keje camne lah plak
suddenly i was thinking what i want to be actually???
accountant??auditor??financial expert???org bijak dalam 'wall street'??

there's many things inside my head
so many
with blackberry causing problems now
i'm really serabutlah
plislah baik baik okay

i feel like i'm being sellfish
ok now i'm like a parrot
repeating the same things
why it always being 'feel'
i'm good at advising people
cakap itu ini..
bile sampai turn sendiri kelu

it's going to rain now
i really want to cuddle in robe on the couch
sipping a cup of hot coffee
that's really cool
oh i'm wearing my yellow blouse out of nowhere
got to change

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

virus

Why am I feeling like this?
Please vanish
I don't want it even in the 'recycle bin'

Thursday, September 23, 2010

yellow

i love yellow colour
ape2 barang pun klu warne kuning
nampak cantik je
cume satu je
highlighter kaler kuning buat kepala pening

clarinase is a big help
but one tablet only is not enough
the flu is on-off
i hope it will fade away soon

there's many things in my notebook
to DAHLIA RAHMAT a.k.a. DALIE
selamat bertunang
semoga jodoh berpanjangan dengan limpah rahmatNya
Amin...

raya mood is always on
we're adjusting the time for the rumah terbuka
:D

Saturday, September 18, 2010

twist of tongue

I was thinking about this
Words can be manipulated
Just by rephrasing

'Kalau bisa dibantu, mengapa mau dikerjakn sndiri'
'Kalau bisa dikerjakn sndri,mengapa mau dibantu'

I took that from 'ada apa dengan cinta' film

'You need to change for someone'
'You need someone to change'

I took this one nowhere..haha

'I scream because I can't cry
And I cry because I can't scream'

That's just me :)

Thursday, September 9, 2010

aidilfitri

semua orang...
SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI 1431H
MAAF dari hujung rambut sampai hujung kaki
MAAF zahir dan batin

okay tu aje




jap2 nak tunjuk some things


cute kan?cute kan?


serius sedap mcm rupenye yang cantik
sbb i eat these with the fact that i don't like marshmallows


 
ini twister&bananas =)



nampak mcm biase je
tp i guess this is the most delicious one
it's orange jem =D

thanks to big bro KHAIRULAZFAR!
ini mmg sedap
terrbaaeeekkkk lah!

Saturday, September 4, 2010

wishing star

i wish i will 'murah rezeki' one day
please turunlah duit dari langit..hahah
cos i really likeloveadore this

Friday, September 3, 2010

it's not like rocket science

'you are all free
when you up above the sky
i guess that's why birds love to fly'

i'm really addicted to Cinderella's Stepsister
from the storyline, casting up to the soundtrack
i just keep playing the songs for thousand times
this is a must show korean drama
the storyline was totally different

"today, i wander in my memory
i’m passing around on the end of this way
you’re still holding me tightly, even though i can’t see you any more
i’m losing my way again
i’m praying to the sky i want see you and hold you more
that i want to see you and hold you more
It can’t be if it’s not you
i can’t be without you
it’s okay if i’m hurt for a day and a year like this
it’s fine even if my heart’s hurts
yes because i’m just in love with you"

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

taylor swift

i don't like this right now
i have tons to say
but i don't feel like writing
maybe i should get some sleep tonite
a quality one

these are what i listened last year






it's not that i like the past
but i think it's okay to remember all the good moments

Sunday, August 29, 2010

quote

i came across this one tumblr
(ohh mls nak buka notebook tgk url nye)
it was full with quotes
and i just love the way she wrote them

i picked this one out from hers


'there is always lie in beLIEve
there is always us in trUSt
there is always end in friENDship
there is always an over in lOVER
there is always if in lIFe (life)'

those lines are true but i just dont like the third one
i really hope there's no end in friendship
even i used to say so

Saturday, August 28, 2010

blurrr~

tidur hanya untuk 3 setengah jam
mmg tak cukup..

blurrr...
good nite

Friday, August 27, 2010

GEMBIRA

alhamdulillah
by today everything is settled
hahahaha...hati senang pegi berjalan
lain yang dicari lain yang dibeli
ok hati senang pg shopping

seronok dpt bli selendang n baju chantek
hahaha...
seronok dpt tgk wayang sebelah ateem
mahu kebas tangan ateem rentap..
tapi mmg seram lah cter tu

oh i realise this one thing about me
i cover my ears instead of my eyes when i'm afraid
funny!
so part2 yang mendebarkan surely my hands on my ears..

now rase macam
tak sabar nak belajar..
klakarlah tp i'm serious..
sometimes near the exam period it will get very hectic here
but then i realise i just love the way i was forced to sit down and do the revision
it makes me feel like i'm workaholic
maybe i just took after my father

mahu ke mana ya esok???
one utama ke jalan tar...
oh ateem nih saje nak buat duit habis!
hahaha
malas dah la bebel
nak buat keje sambilan plak
daaaaa........

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

HAHA

ok akibat blog FIZANYASIN
saye pun tkr template blog sendiri
bler dah kluar layout baru ni
HA!amik kau!
hahaha..tu la gedik sangat kan
tapi thp kemalasan max sehingga mls nak tukar balik
so hadaplah blog sendiri macam gaya org pakai spekmata hitam!

so post punyer font has to be bigger
so dat mata ATEEM tak terjegil kluar biler nak baca ape yang saye tulis
dahla sight vision die maybe,maybelakan tak macam org lain
tu kene konfem balik buat ujian mata dekat ENGLAND OPTICAL

alah...takde masalah..yang duk comment pun balik2
FIZANYASIN,ATEEM N MINNAMAHSIH
hahahhahaha
lagipun takde ads nuffnang pun nak generate income!

haihh fikiran melalut je skrg
sakit kepala dibuatnye
hilang semangatlah!
hmmmm

ok semangat skit
bulan puasa ni bnyk rahmat..
ameen

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

ape yang patut

abah cakap BERSYUKUR
berhenti TERMENUNG

alhamdulillah
bak kata bintang
satu untuk disyukuri
satu untuk dikenangi

papepun stillla sedih skit..
waaaaa 4 markh sama dgn 4ratus rnggit melayang

REDHA..
insyaallah hari esok lebih baik
;)

Sunday, August 22, 2010

tomorrow

time
please stop
time
please turn back

why keep asking for something impossible??
:D

tomorrow
i really hope for something good
please please please ya Allah

Saturday, August 21, 2010

mungkin

Ini bukan lagu anuar zain yg kacak.
('-',)

Mungkin ramadhan buat hatiku lembut
Mungkin benar cakap mereka
Mungkin berhikmah kata mama

Bukan mungkin lagi tp memang!

Saturday morning and u are at library
That's WOW!
:p

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

R.E.M.I.N.D.E.R

my buddies here..

memang sangat sangat GILER


tapi kan...

hati diorang SUCI okay!

tak macam...

okay berhenti mengarut !

Sunday, August 15, 2010

7things

i hate it when ...

1. i thought i'm greedy enough
when the others are greedier

2. i wake up from a bad dream
just to find out that it's 2am not 5am
it makes the night seems so long

3. i dont know what to do and stand still like idiot
it was so pathethic

4. people dont understand me well
and have their assumptions on mind
my time is so precious that i don't bother to correct them

5. i have to make a choice
ESTs' questions during high school were much easier
when it comes to which one would you prefer

6. i'm good at advising my frens
while i am not listening to mine for goodness sake
it's really annoying

7. i dont have the guts for the challenge
and my name was shortlisted!
i keep wondering at which point should i start



daddy asked again
ok i'll go and check out about Gloucestershire
after puasa :D
but if i got fantastic job offer i dont think i'll go
we'll see what to do 

Saturday, August 14, 2010

simply smile ;)

today i realise
a simple thing makes me smile

i bump into a mascot today at the airport
i was looking from far away and smiling
i dont know why but i just keep smiling
it was SMARTIES!

when i was very much younger i love smarties
suke sangat2 smpi each time kluar berjalan i bli
smarties ni kan bnyk kaler n yang paling i suke kaler merah
sbb blh buat mcm lipstick..
so one day i mkn this smarties things while waiting for my brother balik sekolah
bile die sampai i cepat2 approach die dgn bibir merah hasil seni warna smarties
n said to him i was doing a talent show at tadika
he believed that i was a wearing a lipstick
but then i sengih2 gelak2 ckp 'tipu je' and then blah
he taught me to play 'tembak2' dengan bekas smarties yang silinder kadbod tu
still childhood time is always the best

i make my way to the second stage of the tax challenge for individual
unexpected? so true that i don't bring back any tax book for this weekend
happy? alhamdulillah okla kan
but the most important is 2nd stage is scarier!
hahaha
hmmm it's just nice to have millions tons of works to do next week

dear Allah,
please makes me stand firmly for these two days
just for my mom and dad

so tonight i was thinking of resting
turning on the tv while sleeping is much better
than staring blankly at the ceiling
at least with the hope that 'nur kasih' wakes me up
just love the drama
it's unique!

now i think i'm writing too much
haha...hmm...
so long

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

restless

i am tired
really tired

right now
i just want to be alone
i just want to close my eyes
and everything is silent

i dream i wake up
on a green grass field
so wide so quiet
that i only hear my breath
and the sound of blowing wind

dear mom
i'm working hard these days
and i miss u so much

xoxo

Monday, August 9, 2010

when my eyes filled with tears

dear abah
i really love you
there's no other man in this world like you
you speak to my heart
we dont need the talk for it

yours sincerely,
your daughter

wicked witch

ok we start the post today by hmm
by what ya?
ok apologise to ateem cos everytime you try to access to my blog
it was set to private
now i'm public!
hahaha unnie biyane~

i'm very busy
super duper busy that i realised i had lost so much time

okay now the list:

tax revision
finance revision
ceremony invitation
tax global challenge
RAMADHAN ok blk rumah is so the best option ever
RAYA hmm baju raya untuk di melaka blum ade

OMG!itu yang dpt di list
yang tak listed uncountable (ok sonuds like stock market da)
since i'm used to forget everything

now my wish is i want to be normal
how i wish i'm a witch
really
its better to be cold hearted than care about every single thing out here
oh not forget to mention
let me be the witch with the power to put someone under curse HAHA

so tomorrow is the individual deloitte tax challenge
jgn haraplah nak menang satu page tax book pun tak habis baca!
then bye2 duit ribu riban if menanglah
cita-cita tinggi tak boleh blah

tambah lagi satu wish..
semoga internet umah 43 kembali pulih
thanks org tm kejut i pg klas today..

till then
to be continued

Sunday, August 8, 2010

curse

I don't like iphone
Now I hate blackberry too
Am I have the option of another smartphones out there
I need something cooler than those

I don't like midvalley
Now I hate one utama too
Just find some small unbranded shop to buy things
So I might not be working with KPMG
Poor them to lose me

I am under some spell I think
There's no magic potion to cure this
Its funny here that you win
Even I didn't know that I'm in

There is just congratulations I wanna say
U made a good job
But I am better when being the loser

Now I am really wonderful
Not many comes to the sense that they are great
When they are the loser!

Monday, August 2, 2010

eenie meenie miney moe

i make them waiting...




cos i'm digging the patient inside them



cos to me time is love

my mistake is missing you

Head under water
And they tell me to breathe easy for a while
The breathing gets harder, even I know that
Made room for me but it's too soon to see
If I'm happy in your hands
I'm unusually hard to hold on to

Blank stares at blank pages
No easy way to say this
You mean well, but you make this hard on me

Convinced me to please you
Made me think that I need this too
I'm trying to let you hear me as I am


Saturday, July 31, 2010

i fall in the feel

its stuck
i cant go further
i cant go back either
how i wish time stops for me

i'm done
i dont want to hold
yet i dont want to let go
how i wish someone make it for me

i fall
i get up
but i'm just too afraid to continue on running
it feels like i'm running out of breath
and i'm holding on to the last one

i'm fragile
i just cant stand it for too long
i just dont know what to do
yet my actions speak louder than my words


i need guidance
i need courage
i need someone

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

wishes

hati tolong janganla sakit

mata tolong janganla nangis

perasaan tolong janganla marah

fikiran tolong janganla keliru

angin tolong janganla ribut

pantai tolong janganla bergelora

nafas tolong janganla berhenti

kenangan manis tolong janganla pergi

kenangan pahit tolongla jangan datang lagi

Saturday, March 20, 2010

tak suka tak mengapa :)

baru hari ni aku sedar
aku tak suke buat pilihan
oh gosh..
but still its okay n i'm fine

klu buat tak endah dan berserah
mcm org ckp follow the flow
blh ke??

tp ade some matters yang kte kn selesaikan
it looks like running away doesn't solve the problem,,
so ottoke????

aigoooo???weiyooo???
so skrg waktu utk bg masa towards myself to think what's best
still everything can be settled
therefore, till then

xoxo

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Music and me

i love music
i love lyrics with songs

i have this one song that i'm currently listening

dl selalu dgr lagu ni
dan sekarang dengar balik
pernah tak satu2 lagu tu bawak balik kte ke satu2 masa?
sbb sy sll ade feeling mcm tu

'if you're not mine would i have the strength to stand at all'

now i know that i can
it's just a matter of time

'i dont wanna run away but i can't take it, i don't understand'

yes i am truly don't understand
what is left to be done???
i always think that everything is completely forgotten
but i guess i'm wrong this one time

'cause i miss you body and soul so strong  that it takes my breath away'

but that was a long time ago
it isn't now,is it?
YES IT IS

xoxo

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

because i'm weary

The old and aged story called "dream" now knocks on my heart..
The familiar scenery that's too far away to be touched
because I`m weary cause I`m weary
because I`m weary cause I`m weary

Among the clingy world that’s walled out
I plug my ears and sing the song from my childhood

Within the memory of forest that has no start or end
Then I soothe my bruised heart from wandering in the forest
because I`m weary cause I`m weary

Today, another hard day…
The unexpected sound of thumping heart
The thump that can’t be forgotten even if I frown my face
Because I love you, cause I love you
Because I love you, cause I love you

Once the cold wind touches the heart
The unforgettable events covers my eyes
Naïve heart, the night full of trouble and on top of the lines
I’m gasping for breath as I wipe the sweat
Because I love you, cause I love you

Among the clingy world that’s walled out
I plug my ears and sing the song from my childhood

Within the memory of forest that has no start or end
Then I soothe my bruised heart from wandering in the forest
because I`m weary cause I`m weary
because I`m weary cause I`m weary

owh sungguh sedih sbb takdapat tgk MASTER OF STUDY......
jeles kat ateem yg dpt tgk bersungguh...
aigoooo....
bak kate my fren rs nak blaja ble tgk cter tu
mmg rs cam blaja 8hari seminggu pun takpe
takdapat tgk pun dpt dgr OST pun jadikla...
so this is my most most most fav song from the soundtrack...
so my recommendation is you should watch the drama
cos you'll love it

till then..bye2
xoxo

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

loving lover loves

owh pening bace title..
i just read this from one of my fren's page
it's just nice
so i decided to put it here
it's from somebody's email

My husband is S/W Engineer by profession, I love him for his steady nature and I love the warm feeling when I lean against his broad shoulders.
Two years of courtship and now, five years into marriage, I would have to admit, that I am getting tired of it. The reasons of me loving him before, has now transformed into the cause of all my restlessness.


I am a sentimental woman and extremely sensitive when it comes to a relationship and my feelings. I yearn for the romantic moments, like a little girl yearning for candy. My husband is my complete opposite; his lack of sensitivity, and the inability of bringing romantic moments into our marriage has disheartened me about LOVE.


One day, I finally decided to tell him my decision, that I wanted a divorce.



"Why?" he asked, shocked.


"I am tired. There are no reasons for everything in the world!" I answered.


He kept silent the whole night, seemingly in deep thought. My feeling of disappointment only increased. Here was a man who was not able to even express his predicament, so what else could I expect from him?


And finally he asked me: "What can I do to change your mind?"


Somebody said it right... It's hard to change a person's personality, and I guess, I have started losing faith in him.


Looking deep into his eyes I slowly answered: "Here is the question. If you can answer and convince my heart, I will change my mind.


Let's say, I want a flower located on the face of a mountain cliff, and we both are sure that picking the flower will cause your death. Will you do it for me?"


He said: "I will give you your answer tomorrow...." My hopes just sank by listening to his response.


I woke up the next morning to find him gone, and saw a piece of paper with his scratchy handwriting underneath a milk glass, on the dining table near the front door, that goes....


My dear, "I would not pick that flower for you, but....please allow me to explain the reasons further.....


This first line was already breaking my heart. I continued reading.


"When you use the computer you always mess up the Software programs, and you cry in front of the screen. I have to save my fingers so that I can help to restore the programs.


You always leave the house keys behind, thus I have to save my legs to rush home to open the door for you.


You love traveling but always lose your way in a new city. I have to save my eyes to show you the way.


You always have the cramps whenever your "good friend" approaches every month. I have to save my palms so that I can calm the cramps in your tummy.


You like to stay indoors, and I worry that you will be infected by infantile autism. I have to save my mouth to tell you jokes and stories to cure your boredom.


You always stare at the computer, and that will do nothing good for your eyes. I have to save my eyes so that when we grow old, I can help to clip your nails and help to remove those annoying white hairs. So I can also hold your hand while strolling down the beach, as you enjoy the sunshine and the beautiful sand...and tell you the colour of flowers, just like the colour of the glow on your young face...


Thus, my dear, unless I am sure that there is someone who loves you more than I do... I could not pick that flower yet, and die ... "


My tears fell on the letter, and blurred the ink of his handwriting... and as I continue on reading... "Now, that you have finished reading my answer, and if you are satisfied, please open the front door for I am standing outside bringing your favorite bread and fresh milk...


I rushed to pull open the door, and saw his anxious face, clutching tightly with his hands, the milk bottle and loaf of bread....Now I am very sure that no one will ever love me as much as he does, and I have decided to leave the flower alone... 

isn't that just sweet???
owh it's really sweet
although i dont believe in LOVE i believe in FATE.
org ckp terima psgn seadanya..
bersyukur atas ape yang ade..
ni lah contohnye..
nak ckp lebih pun pengalaman takde maaa

but i got my lovelife
i got my momndad
my brothernsisters
the whole bunch of what we called family
then i'm glad that i passed the exams (Alhamdulillah)
n hope that i do pass them next next time (InsyaAllah)

last but not least i hope that i'll have someone by my side
at that moment maybe i'll change so that
i believe in LOVE and FATE

till then
xoxo

Sunday, February 21, 2010

i love daddy

i love it
when he thinks how upset his children might be
then said 'ngaju ke?'


i love it 
when he still carries the luggage even if i insist
then said 'malu la anak dara pikul beg'


i love it 
when he spent and hide it from mum
then said 'murah cikai je nih' before mum blabbering


i love it 
when he's being cool when i'm not
then he said 'it's okay'


i love it
when he listed every single person in  the house that made me cry
at last he said 'mama yang buat ke?'


i love it 
when i got nothing for my birthday
but i got many many things the other someday


i love it
when he picked up my call in meeting room
and then replied 'abah tgh meeting tapi takpe.ade ape?'


i love it 
when he laughed all the way when his secrets were out
then said 'nak bodek abah tp tak pandai smpn rhsia'

i love it 
when i love everything about my daddy
xoxo

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

kenapa malas..?

aduhai...
exam luse da..
tapi satu pun tak cover lagik for that subject
i really dont get it why n whats wrong with me
knp sangat malas ni....

btw now i feel that i did sumthing wrong
n i'm thinking ways to fix it
ways to approach n respond
hehe

ohh really i need to study
i nak study grant..
sungguh exam fees for the papers are expensive
so i must should have the grant

it's raining now n this is the perfect  time to miss home
teringat zaman mule2 masuk boarding school
always menghitung hari detik demi detik
fikir bile nak abis sekolah walhal baru first week masuk form 1
heh got 5 years time to go
wut a long journey
however
last day at school i always thought that time is running so fast
sekejap je rs setahun skrg..

n lagik sekejap je rs sehari skrg due to condition that i'm having my exams the day after tomorrow
so i'll stop right here untuk bagi laluan pada diri sendiri pg berehat
dan kemudian sambung belajar
n really, i need to fix my sleeping cycle
it's turning upside down nowadays

till meet again
xoxo

Monday, February 15, 2010

i'm a loner

hai!
tonite i nak share this one song that i keep playing bile i masuk kete put
hahahaha
skit2 nak lagu no 57 (put pn redha jerk)
cn blue nyanyi
i suke bangat sbb ahli grupnye pun kacak sangat!
hahahah
lagu ni catchy but actually is a sad one (heh)
dlm my playlist lagu no 2
enjoy!!


(I'm a loner. I'm a loner.
I'm a loner. I'm a loner.)

Look, look at me, me. Look at me straight in the eyes.
Look, you are already look at elsewhere.
Check it one two three, you only keep looking at the clock.
You don't have to tell me. I know you got someone else.


(Rap)
You've been meeting someone else often lately.
You don't even call me first anymore.
When you are with me, you would only look at the sky even if a day is a second long.
Oh~ I know your mind. The distance between you and I.
Getting farther and wider. We are no better than strangers.


 oh baby

 I'm a loner, I'm a loner. daridiridara du~ 
I'm a loner. I'm a loner. daridiridara du~
I'm a loner, I'm a loner. I'm a loner being sad at love,

 shedding tear at love. 
sad sad sad sad sad sad sad tonight. 
My hurt hurts.
Oh no no no no no body knows, 

how I feel.
one two three four five six seven night, 

I'm cheering up myself passing many nights awake.

(Rap) If you had just told me honestly
that you got someone else. That you hate me.
Then I wouldn't have hated you to death.
check it one two three. Remembering your words, they are all silly lies.

Love is going. Love is leaving.
(One person and one love. Everything that I've been used to)
I should erase you after tonight.
(Yes, I should force myself to erase you. I should do so since you abandoned me)
(Gone Gone my love is gone)


I'm a loner, I'm a loner. daridiridara du~ 

I'm a loner, I'm a loner. daridiridara du~
I'm a loner, I'm a loner. I'm a loner hurt by love and waiting for love.
sad sad sad sad sad sad sad tonight, I want this to be a dream.
Oh no no no no no body knows, no body knows me.
one two three four five six seven night, I'm crying passing many nights awake.

Saturday, February 13, 2010

LUPA

sungguh aku lupa perasaan itu
puas aku korek kotak fikiran tapi still tak jumpa
tak mengapalah
lupa pada hal yang satu nih cukup bagus bagi aku


tapi sumpah takut bile kite jadi seorang yang pelupa
lupa ttp iron, lupa tutup lampu kereta etc
mahu menangis gelabah tahap cipan
waktu ni la segala jenis drama tragis duk play dalam bayangan aku
takut tu kalau jadi mcm dalam crite 'a moment to remember'
YA ALLAH sihatkan lah tubuh badan dan fikiran ku


tambah plak kalau tetiba terhantuk kepala kat dinding
dengan daya yang agak kuat smpi blk sblah pun dgr
mahu tak gelabah duk fikir 'aku  kene pg CT SCAN ker??'
mula la msg kwn2 kedoktoran mntk pndgn n nasihat
ALHAMDULILLAH, stakat nih takde ape2 yang buruk


kesimpulannya, kite tahu nikmat akal fikiran yang ALLAH bagi ni amat berharga
lagik berharga thp infiniti dari kereta BMW 6 series yang aku idamkan
oleh itu mmgla waktu emo bercinta bagai nak gila dulu mntak nak lupa ingatan
tapi skrg dah rasional jadik lebih waras untuk pilih supaya mnjaga kesihatan otak,akal,fikiran dan kenangan
and oleh sbb human is the best creature in the world, we can choose to just leave those yang memang menyakitkan hati dan tak layak untuk diingat
yes!saya sekarang lebih matured (^-^)


plus, i've already treasured my sweetest moments with my frens-dunia-akhirat during our first BBQ together which was located at taman tasik seksyen 7 last weekend...
but sorry i'm not uploading the pictures as i dont have the copy yet
so just drop by here --> http://fizanyasin.blogspot.com to view some of them


till meet again
xoxo