when u r not in sleeping mode

i'm tired actually but mata still xnk lelap
deep inside me i havent settled this one thing
i just don't know how to


i'm great with this life, Alhamdulillah
but it happens sometimes i just cant take it
i tend to walk backwards in my life


only Allah knows deep inside my heart..
and I know that Allah has His best on me
and I also know that things happen for reasons


maybe the reasons are not coming out yet
or maybe it's just me who didnt realise it


YA ALLAH
sucikanlah hati, fikiran dan perbuatan hamba-Mu ini
jadikanlah hamba-Mu ini hamba-Mu yang sebenar2nya yang berada di jalan-Mu


and Al-Fatihah for someone i knew back few years ago